I keep having a reoccurring dream that I am walking the empty streets of Dundee, Scotland. Although I imagine every inch in vivid detail, I’m not quite sure why I am lost and what I’m looking for. This is all very obvious, but still the most frightening dreams I have ever had. Even more frightening than the ones where I’m driving and cannot stop the car. Using what skills I have from dream analysis, I guess what is going on is that I am still stuck in Scotland. I cannot move past what I lost going on that trip.
My friend recently told me that I should do things that make me happy. Shit, what? I made a list. It was short. So, I’m making an effort to do things that make me happy, well mainly finding out what that is. This includes cooking, baking, and blogging. So, yes. I’m alone in a town of couples, but I should figure out who the fuck I am. I need to embrace all this free time to figure myself out. Further, I’m trying to reach out to old friends. I am in the process of planning a trip to Chicago. I’ve cleaned my apartment on a weekly basis. I’m like Mary Tyler Moore.
So, it is probably hard not to think of Scotland (what I miss, what I loss) when it is all over my apartment. And, I had crumpets for breakfast. These are from Trader Joes, and while they are okay, they are much too thin in comparison to the ones in the UK. I slathered them with butter and peach jam (from the farmers market). Also, just so you know: a crumpet is like an English muffin but softer and you don’t have to slice it. They have nooks and crannies that work well with jam. Kate Middleton probably eats them.
Well, this is my breakfast and these are my thoughts.
Figuring out what to do with newly found free time can be more stressful than fun. I always find myself stressing about it. Which seems to be more of a contradiction than anything else. Throwing myself back into the vicious cycle of routine/boredom/etc.
Kate Middleton eats?
mmm I love crumpets! And enjoy the upcoming travel
Since graduating and moving back home I’ve been told to make a list of things that make me happy as well.
I have like, two things. Both of which I can’t have at the moment it seems…
I recommend using those crumpets to make Tiger Toast. And if you don’t know what that is, well, get your ass down here to Australia already.
Yes. Do this. Make a list and do the things that make you happy. There is nothing more important. I’m going through the same process myself here in Austin. It has been painful but good.
crumpets are freaking delicious! especially with a thick layer of raspberry jam!